our own spring fling; four months and; happy feet.

So yesterday was Spring Fling and man oh man was it fun. Well I mean Cory, Dan and myself did not go to the actual Spring Fling instead we hung out in B-Ville.

We walked to my house with no plan in our head about what we were doing that night. Around 3:30 Kiley calls me and asks me to meet her at the LCBO. I won’t go into detail however after that Kiley stuck with us, and we decided to go to B-Ville and do a little shopping. We went to Zellers, basically I bought an i-cy thing (its like an i-dog but a penguin!), I bought a pink camo skin for my iPod nano, I bought new camo shoes, a pair of bootay shorts (they are sooo cute!), the movie Happy Feet, a hat and a pair of sunglasses. After chillin’ at Zellers we went to go wait for the bus, anyways we ended up missing it and walked to Liberty Bowl to find out that there was no lanes open until 9:30pm, so we turned around and walked to Dollarama. We walked so much. But it was so much fun! So much! I loved just chillin’ with the guys. haha.

Happy Feet is a funny movie. I liked it, it is very cute. Kind of lame, but whatever I dont care I loved it. hehe.

Cory and I walked home today on our spare and hung out at my house. We didnt do anything special however it was pretty awesome. Again with him I can just hang out, he might be bored but he would never tell me, and he seems alright just hanging out. You see we were supposed to get smashed off our faces, however we…well can’t right now. So we post-poned it until not next weekend but the weekend after that! Which I cant wait, three bottles of 1 litre of Vex. Oh man! If you have facebook or myspace, beware of the pictures. hehe. Four months! I am so excited, he got me a card that almost made me cry, with a little “Love” book (which is way cute!) oh and cheese sticks (because I LOVE them!) hehe. I got him a card (which was also sappy) and this little…thing…I dont know what its called I forget but its cute. I love him so much!

Anyways I still am not feeling very good and it doesnt help when my dad is being stupid all the time. He gives me these stupid looks, do you know what I mean? Those looks that just make you think he is mad, I don’t know how to describe it but its so stupid. I really dont like how he treats me. I can’t wait for the day to move out, just say “Bye” and leave. He makes all my problems seem 10X worse then they actually are because he makes me more mad about everything. He is worse then PMS!
Miss Misery and I are…I am not sure actually. I read her blog today and when I read it, it made me feel like she is trying to make me out to be the bad person in this “situation” because what she is saying that I said is not what I actually said. You follow? Anyways I emailed her during Media Class and said that (not so nicely, but I appologized for being bitchy, I think!) and she explained that yes it is how she interprets what I said. I understand that but maybe her readers dont…and I know I didn’t say half the things she wrote. Bleh. It doesnt matter I guess, but it made me feel like crap. Prom Queen is stupid anyways. I tried for it to not bother me because I was with Cory, and when she emailed me back I guess, it was sort of a truce. So I guess things are okay? She said that I too sometimes make her out to be the bad guy, which is what I used to do, but now I try to explain both sides. In this little arguement I didnt make her out to be the bad guy, I told it how it was. Like I said though…I think we are okay now.

Prom Queen Woes.

Last night I signed onto Facebook to notice that a girl, Kate had made a group for people to join because she wanted to be Prom Queen. I saw this and laughed. I knew that Prom was coming up, and I knew how much I didn’t want to deal with the Prom Queen bullshit. Cory was over and I went downstairs and told him about it. Then I get a phone call from Chelsee and we go out and hang with her for a bit.

We walked up town, and by then I was cooled down. Then we see Ryan (a McDonalds manager) drive past, then we look up at the bank and we see JessicaL and Brett standing there. Chelsee and I yell for Jessica, and when we got there it was a little awkward. But we all talked and soon things were normal. Then I get a text from Miss Misery saying that she didnt want to go to the mall and hang out and do nothing. So I called her. We talked, and she suggested seeing a movie. I dont mind it…but I wanted to hang out with my Best Friend, not be stuck in a theatre for 2 hours not talking to her and then go home. By the end of the phone call, I was irritated again. Once again we make plans and they fall through I dont know why I bother. Anyways we all start walking, while Cory and I start talking about what we are going to do Thursday. Brett and JessicaL and Scott (he came just as we were leaving) walked their separate ways and we walked to Subway. When getting to Subway Cory and Chelsee ordered and I went to the washroom. When we were all done, we sat down and they started eating. I get another text message from Miss Misery saying that I should nominate her for Prom Queen. I replied with, “No. I am nominating Danielle”. Miss Misery got upset over it, saying that since I am her Best Friend she thought that I would have her back.

You know that whole “I thought you were my Best Friend” crap is getting old. Im sorry but truthfully it is. Everytime we are in a stupid fight she always uses that against me.

Anyways Chelsee and Kiley (who joined us shortly after) and Cory all noticed me getting pist off again and asked whats up so I told them. I read the texts, and what I replied to them, and they said “Dont worry about it”. Easier said then done, you can’t just throw your feelings away. Miss Misery is always saying that I don’t understand her and I never listen and its getting old. She says she is having problems? Everyone is, and no one needs to be fighting with their friends. I feel like it doens’t matter whether or not I am there anymore because she has Neil. She just doesnt seem to need me anymore.

I stayed home from school today because I haven’t been feeling good for the past week. Plus I am emotionally and mentally weird right now. Every little thing seems to piss me off lately, and I am afraid of loosing everyone close to me, but in the same instance I am seeing things differently, or maybe I am finally growing up, or I am just opening my eyes to see what the real world and high school is really about. Not following? Neither am I. I talked to Cory last night about alot of things on my mind. And he admitted to me that I have put on some weight. I asked him to be honest, and I thanked him for being honest. Atleast someone is honest with me, I know I have put on some weight. But nothing makes sense anymore. I took the test and it said I wasn’t preg. so why does it still feel like something is different? No period, breast tenderness, random weight gain, sick? I talked to my mom this morning when I said I wasnt feeling good, and she asked if I was pregnant. Talk about close to home? Im so freaking confused, and I dont know what to think about anything anymore. Everything and everyone is changing, including myself and I am at a loss.

im leaving.

So basically I have been hearing a “friend” talking about moving out this summer and it has made me think a little about how I want to get out and leave. I mean I am tired of everything at home and I just want out. I know what your thinking- I am a teenager who won’t stand a chance on my own just yet. And to some extent I agree. Chelsee and I have been talking about moving in together, and it seems like we might actually get a place this summer together. However I have also talked to Miss Misery and I am supposed to room with her. It’s complicated though.

Next year I was going to go back to high school and top off some credits which I know I can do better then I actually did. But now that I am thinking about it more, I am deciding that going back is not what I really want anymore. I know that I would fall into that category of students who say “I have already graduated and I don’t need these credits” then drop out and I do not want to do that. So instead all summer I am going to work, work, work (like I usually do) and save my money for a car, so I can drive, so I can work somewhere other then McDonalds (because that place drives me crazy!), and then I can move out. I wanted to wait until I had my G2 so I could go in search for a job at the OC at like Garage Clothing or something. Anyways those are only plans, and usually plans fall through and never end up happening anyways.

This Thursday is Spring Fling and some friends and I are not going. We were planning on going to Laser Quest, but now the plans (that we made like two weeks ago) arent happening anymore. It turns out that Miss Misery and Nifty do not have the stupid moo-la to come, so Dan (someone coming with us) offered to pay and everything, but now Miss Misery might have to stay later for some co-op thing. Am I jelous? Yes ma’am! I haven’t seen my girl in forever (or rather hung out with her) and this Thursday I was really excited to spend time with her, I booked it off from work and we had this plan…and like always (not only with her) the plans have fallen through; not all her fault; but still it brings a tear to my eye.

So this Friday (yes a day after Spring Fling) Cory and I are celebrating our 4 months. I am so excited! We are getting loaded (hopefully) hehe. I want to get him something really special that means alot to me and him. Well okay just him. He means the world to me, and again 4 months is not really THAT long, but it feels like I have been with him for years. And no way in hell am I saying that in a bad way! I haven’t been to nice to him, but I hope he knows he means everything to me and I love him with all my heart.

oh my gawd!

Okay so I will post tomorrow. For the second time in the last 20 minutes Blogger has screwed up. Just letting you know I had a huge post, then I had to type another one, I typed it it was alright. And then it happened again. I am a little more then irritated again.

They made me switch into that stupid Google Blogger bs and I wanted nothing to do with it Hmm, I wonder why? Glogger as Miss Misery calls it can suck my penis.

and life goes on.

I haven’t blogged in like a month. And I guess there is no excuse for that except I haven’t had time. There are too many things happening all at once.

For starters I bought a new cell phone, a pink Razor phone through Bell. I bought a new phone only because my Solo Mobile phone is g.a.y. I wanted to try out a contract again and the Solo contracts are useless now that Solo doesn’t do unlimited text messaging. And for me, I am a text message-aholic. haha. So far its going well; but i have only had the phone for a week now. I’m dreading my first phone bill only because I havent been working alot since they cut hours now since its so slow.

Cory and I are still together and happier then ever. Although things are coming between us sort of. I mean the thought and possibility of a baby. Yes you heard that right. I won’t go into much detail because i do not know for sure yet about anything. So I will leave it at that. I love him more then anything. And I know…I just know that he is the one. Something is different; and I know i have said that about almost every guy i have been with; but this time something is different. He is a good guy, and he is amazing. He makes me smile, and I know i can always count on him.

I miss my best friend so much. I like never see her now that she has a four credit co-op all the way in Whitby, and most of the time I am working, or she is with her boyman. And because my dad is a douche and doesnt drive me anywhere anymore. Unless to work and even that like ten minute drive I have to like beg! Anyways, I miss her so much.

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What happens when you have your G1 but your boyfriend lets you drive everywhere? I’m talking everywhere…normal streets, highways (including the 115/35 and the 401). But you see your boyfriend does not have his G (or four years of driving)?
What happens when this person is driving and comes to a railroad and sees that the lights are flashing, doesnt know what to do, so she asks her boyfriend he says slow down, but you hear speed up. Ten seconds later the train wizzes past. Almost killing the boyfriend, your friend, and yourself?

I am having an issue with one of my best friends. I dont like that she drives her boyfriends car all the time, even on highways. I dont want to tell her, because when Cory’s parents asked Cory why she was driving when they saw her, one night after soccer, she flipped out like she always does when she thinks she is right and we are wrong. And bitched at him. It pissed me off, but i bit my tongue. Anyways, so far when she is driving she has almost been in several accidents and im worried. I don’t want to tell anyone because she will be mad at me ALOT, and she will be like “well why did you even get in the car with us if you knew i was driving?” which is true. I didnt have to get in the car. However I didnt want to offend her, and I had no way there or home.

I know this is bad to say. But I hope one day, when she is driving with her boyfriend and when I am in the car. That she gets into an accident, nothing serious to her or her boyfriend, but something to me. Yes a little crazy I know…but maybe then she would learn. And im not talking like something really serious, just me get injured, nothing life threatening…ya know?

Gah! I dont know what to do.